It goes a little something like this

Wow. I really just got yelled at by my parents just now over some stupid shit. I try so hard for those two. I’m maintaining a 4.0 GPA as of now on one of the most difficult majors my school has to offer just so I don’t feel like a failure around them. I exceed every one of their fucking high expectations just for them to expect even more from me. I’m a perfectionist. I’m trying to be their perfect child. But it’s getting fucking harder and harder to stay perfect. 

Almost everything I’ve done was for them. When they told me I was too fat, I made myself lose over 50 pounds just for them to shut the fuck up. When they said I was lazy, I got myself a job, even though it meant losing sleep working a graveyard shift. Now, I’m just sick of it. Because of my parents, I grew up hating myself because there was always something that they pointed out that I should change about myself. Every time I begin to get comfortable with myself, I all of a sudden have a flaw that they point out. Bullshit. I don’t even know what the fuck to do with myself at times. 

I never complain about my parents, but this is just ridiculous. I make big effort just to make them proud. They should at least acknowledge the effort. I just want more than just a simple nod every time I accomplish something. For once, I want to take a compliment from them, not criticism.